May 5, 2003
I Miss Her
At times like this, when I'm totally at lost not knowing what to do, I wish I had her beside me, just to be with me. Just hearing her voice would calm me.. giving me a sense of belonging, I miss her every moment of the day, while I had lunch I was thinking, is she eating her lunch right now? is she thinking of me? oh how painful it is to be so far away from her, yes I know KL and Penang is not that far away. But I'm stuck over here, doing my bit of work.... oh how I wish that everyday I could be there with her.. All I have to satisfy myself with is a picture of her and the comfort of hearing her voice. God how I miss her so. Am I overly mushy here? have never thought of myself as a romantic, have even been accused of being too serious and unromantic.... but this is how I feel... I just miss her...
Listening to Bosson - One In A Million .... Nora you're my one in a million... I love you....
Just as I thought there'd be no more surprises from him, he surprises me again.. A few time chatted with her? Wasn't it just once and that was to find out if what I told him about her info was true? Now, it's a few times..wooowwweeeee, isn't this exciting! *screams* Now, let's get back to the story.. It's not actually the matter of jealousy (well a little, of which I'm entitled to), but it's the matter of why he did it. It has always been my princip that it takes two to tango..so TWO main questions is, am I boring or is he bored? Which is which? I'm struggling with a 9 to 5 practical which determines my future and making ideal time for my boyfriend (READ: jerk) Isn't he getting enough attention from me? Am I some sort of a toy? It's bad enough I don't even like that B to the I to the T-C-H! (AND SHE KNOWS IT!!) oh darn, he (READ: the same jerk as the above) knows it too. Since it takes two to tango, so what am I missing here? (READ: WHERE THE HELL DID I GO WRONG??!) And he expects to have a decent conversation with me when he calls.. *sigh* With whom should I be angry at? A certain bimbo who wanted to hear his voice knowing he already has a girlfriend? A guy that even entertained her in the first place with the idea of 'being friendly' and actually gave her his phone number when she said SHE WANTED TO HEAR HIS VOICE? (couldn't it be another reason? Even if there was another reason, I'd still be half as furious) (READ: he said once, then it's a few) Or, ME for being an idiot (an idiot who just wasted RM1000-00 to get the computer repaired) and a fool??
abang man...sorry i can't back u up on this, cos i hate guys who lie myself...oh hell, i hate all guys at the mo!!(upst, ter-emo sat..sowie)..all i can say is, u have one hell of making up to do. i know u love my sis so much, but nasi dah jadi bubur...so, do whatever u can lah ok? *dont worry abg man, i know she loves u too..that's why everything u do matters to her*
bubur dah cair, i'm not a good cook... i dont know how to take care of ppl's heart... and i did not lie.....
oh yeaa..i guess, i have to say u are the baddy in this story..don't care..u r the baddy, bro..better do something good.bad bad badddd reason to give out ur number..how could u be so naive...no such thing as give ur number to another girl who wants to just hear ur voice..that "just wanna hear ur voice" just sound fishy lah.well, at least it sound fishy to any girl who happened to know that her bf talk to another guy..anyway didn't say ure lying.but still doesnt justify what u did as a boipen.ahaks.
